Awaken from a beautiful dream

Awakening from a beautiful dream sounds sad, but really it is a happy event, at least you kind of get out from lies. I just gotten out from mine. Kind of unwilling to but still i know i need to. :) In the dream i almost forgotten what i suppose and not suppose. The wake up call just reminded my role.

No more emotional influlence

We are friends. He is my friend and I am his friend. Friends help one another in trouble time. Friends spend time tgt to build friendship.
That's my definition of friends !

Excited!

I am very very excited~
However, deep in my heart i knew, i couldn't be.

Warmth

Going through all I realized being scolded by ur family is a form of blessing. Being laugh by ur friend is a blessing. Needed to rely on someone is a blessing. I felt warmth with all that. I am super imperfect but none of Tt matters. Cause thru Tt imperfection I found more warmth than ever.
Facing the true self in me :) I really misses the J. But I guess I am not in the league. :) sweet memories keeps me happy! I hope more of these memories be made. That brighten me totally!
Facing the true self in me:( I am discourage ttm. My effort is not seen. At least I felt Tt. Fallen star fallen star. Who would know? Who would care?
Facing the true self :s again God I don dare to face You. I have fallen short of Your glory but didnt know how to get back. Need more motivation thanks !

What am i doing?

Again again... I don know what am I doing again:( lack if motivation for almost all things!! My subconscious mind Sabo me ttm. Dreams from Patrick to leehom to ai to what else jj?? Faints can't u just stay out of this ! Alright that's abt all my rattering !