F my life!

I am just a total pack of lies. Such a wretch! This is the worst part of my life! What have i become? Oh my! have i not have plan for a future? I needed to be focus in life again! Totally no mood or whatsoever for work and studies not mentioning even work @ church! I just screwed my life totally! Covering myself up with beautiful fake feathers to hide my ineffeciency and laziness. Lies after lies! I had it enough of myself behaving that way. What a freaking irritating WRETCH i am. Oh Man! I am totally F-UP! hated this part of my life and this part of me! Right here right now RACHEL pls CHANGE!!